Red Sox Chick/Toeing the Rubber

Because you always need a backup plan

As the bandwagon gets lighter there's more room for the rest of us!

This photo was sent to me in 2007.  Someone lifted it from Flickr but I'm not sure who to give credit to.  I put it up now because it makes me smile and I could really use it!

This photo was sent to me in 2007. Someone lifted it from Flickr and a quick search has user "StarrGazr" as the photographer. I put it up because it brings a smile to my face and I need that right now.

In a fit of frustration, I wrote this 1000 word entry about how frustrating watching Jonathan Papelbon blow the Red Sox lead and lose the game in the ninth was for me and for everyone.  I pounded the keyboard until my fingers were sore and even considered writing the whole thing in red just to get the point across.  But something odd happened as I finished typing.  I had a fleeting thought.

What if Papelbon read my blog?

Now, I don’t believe for a minute he does, or would.  That really isn’t the point.  The point is, why make him feel worse, even if it’s just virtually?  He just did something lousy.  Really bad.  Gut-wrenchingly terrible.  Do I think he doesn’t know this?  Do I think that by ranting it’ll make any difference?  Do I believe that he left Yankee Stadium and went out and got happily drunk just because he’s in New York?

There is no sugar coating how upsetting the loss is.  While I went into the game expecting them to struggle and then was greeted with the five run first inning everything else that happened in the game gave me hope that they could pull it out.  So watching Papelbon hand the Yankees the win really hurt.  Writing about it made me feel better.  Got all the bad emotions out of my body and into the entry.  But that was energy I didn’t want hanging around this blog.  I’m not going to pretend that it’s all puppies and ice cream and everything is great…Sox lost, Yanks won (and the Rays won too).  Things absolutely suck right about now.  But to rant about one player having one bad inning and putting the blame for all of the woes of the team (lest we forget the pitcher who gave up the first six runs of the game) is ridiculous and flat-out unfair.  Yes, had Papelbon done his job the Sox hit the showers with a “W” tonight.  But if Daisuke Matsuzaka did his job, Papelbon probably wouldn’t have been in that situation in the first place.  You can find blame anywhere you choose to look for it.

No one said being a fan of ANY team would be easy.  Just because we choose to be fans doesn’t mean we should find it so easy to make others feel awful.  If there is anyone who thinks Paps doesn’t feel awful about this game, I have nothing to say to you.  Slamming him in the face with what he did tonight won’t accomplish anything but making you feel better about your small life.

It sucks.  It happens.  And it’s done.

I’ve unfollowed quite a few people on Twitter tonight.  I’ve decided there is no reason to keep people in my timeline who relish in Red Sox losses or who want to get hoards of Red Sox fans on board with all of the team bashing.  Life is too short to surround yourself with miserable people.  I’m not going to be miserable.  I’ll be nursing the wounds of this one for a while but I’ll be back again Tuesday night.  I’m a fan. It’s what I do.


May 17, 2010 - Posted by | 2010 | , , ,


  1. I knew I could count on you to make me smile after that tragedy in NY.
    LOVE this pic of Kyle…mostly cos it shows how much he’s really like the rest of us 🙂

    Comment by Tex19 | May 18, 2010 | Reply

  2. It takes discipline and maturity to scrap an excellent rant such as you’ve described. I’m sure we would have recognized the sentiments. I’m admiring your decision.

    I often think of the magnified spotlight that Papelbon has to occupy while he develops and practices the incredible focus, discipline and maturity it takes to be top closer. It’s a tightrope requiring a young arm and an old head. It’s easy to forget the time after time he does it right on a night like tonight when it gets away from him. Tough all around tonight.

    Comment by Anita | May 18, 2010 | Reply

  3. Sure, the loss hurts, especially considering how; two run lead dissipates in the bottom of the 9th. And sure, Paplebon was also off his game. But there are other plays, other players and if point the finger mentality that seems to want to rule the day gets any closer to my house, I’m calling the police.


    Team loss.


    They had no quit.


    I still have bills to pay.


    I was highly enmeshed in last night’s game.


    There is baseball again tonight.


    They’re still my team… been there, done that.

    Comment by Tru | May 18, 2010 | Reply

    • Tru you are the one who always helps me keep the faith. 🙂

      This game reminded me a lot of that extra innings game in 2004 when Jeter took “the dive”. At the very least it reminded me of how I felt after that game.

      I like the way things ended up that year. 🙂 Not saying that will happen this year. That hole they’re digging is getting mighty deep. Just remembering we have to take the bad with the good and, ultimately, I’m all right with that.

      Comment by Cyn | May 18, 2010 | Reply

  4. Great post, and great pic!

    Comment by beth | May 21, 2010 | Reply

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